I'M DROWNING!
I'M DROWNING!
I'M DROWNING!

Drowning in the shoe box full of broken promises you have given to me!

Drowning in the reality that you and I will neva be!

Drowning in the tough love you abusively express to me, then you
have the nerve to reach over and try to caress me!! 
Talk about audacity!!
Brotha my emotions are not to be teased!

I'M DROWNING!

Drowning in the "Uh, I ain't got no phone, but you can reach me by my pager" type Brothas. 
And Sistas don't let the current pull you under with them cheap azz, 
"just-returning-your-call-cuz-YOU-paged-ME!" type Brothas!!!!!

Drowning in the "Uh, I ain't seeing nobody - only with you I'm tryin to
holla," only to find out 3 days later Brotha is living & sleepin with his Baby's Mama.

Drowning in the "I love ME SOME BLACK WOMEN - THEY B MY QUEENS,
THEY B MY WORLD - but because they got too much damn lip - I gotta go get
me a white gurl"

Now all that lumped together was enough to pull a sister under,
but the bones of my Ancestors lifted me up and made me stronger.

Don't look now, another whirlpool is sucking me in. 
I can't believe that I'm drowning once again!!

I AM DROWNING!!!

I'm drowning in Sistas whose sole method of birth control is
abortion. I believe you have a right to choice - but Sista, choice should
have been made before Brotha Man entered your Heavenly Course.

Now sperm has reached egg and the two have become whole. But
because You continue to think with your Lower Self, your irresponsibility
leads you to murder another Black Soul. Baby drowns in a mixture of lust &
acid juice. Can you say GENOCIDE cuz I'm drowning too!

I'M DROWNING!!!

Drowning in Sistas! Sistas who spend their entire check on the
latest fashions - take a trip to some of their homes and the children B
eatin air sandwiches. Bay-Bay ain't had a bath since last week. T-Bone
outside slanging rocks to undercover police. Tee-Tee ain't seen her
menses in 8 weeks, but Mama be Looking GOOD in the streets. Sista can't get
her house-hold in order so every night in the club she drowns in a bottle.

I'M DROWNING!!!

I'm drowning in these arm-chair revolutionaries who wont help
our political prisoners gain amnesty, mention Assata, Sundiata, The
Africas & Mumia and they say "We ain't ready for them to be free!"

I'm drowning in the quick sand of lies religious folk keep trying to control my mind with. 
From that Adam & Eve Story on down to the
homosexual trinity!!! See the Real Trinity B Ausar, Auset & Heru - That's
right the Black Man, The Black Woman & the Black Child too. If anybody
tells you different, tell them to refer back to the most Ancient of
Scribes. It's time we destroy foundations built on lies.
I once was blind but now I see, through the Tree Of Life 
I can control my own destiny.

So when the currents of strong waters try to take me under.
The Sun Changes my Physical composition & my vapor dances across
the waters, so I throw my life preserver  to You....


Kamaria Ngozi

copyright 1999